Closes her eyes and holds him tight
Listens to him snore away
Thinks about another day
She hears?
A cry to pierce the silent house
Footsteps quiet....a night time mouse?
Across the hall it creeps, until
it stops....then it is still
A voice
WAKEY WAKEY! right in her face
(can't she be some other place?)
A snotty smile before her stands,
Giggles loud then grabs her hands
She sighs
With heavy heart and mansize bags
She heaves her weight, her stomach sags
The scars she bears, the price she pays
For creating life as her hopes fade
She moves
Across the hall, “Now back to bed
You gorgeous *testing* sleepy head,
It's 2am not time to wake”
No waiting for the day to break
She's tired
Tired of sleeping off and on
Of seeing day at half past one
Of greying whites and hairy legs
Of eating slops and drinking dregs.
She's lost
Lost in a haze of night and day
Of never putting things away
In their right place (she found the milk
Underneath the kitchen sink)
It's sour
Sour milk, burnt toast
Looking like she's seen a ghost
And all because she hasn't slept
For five years now, her self unkempt
Caffeine
The only thing to right her day
And wipe the sleepless nights away
(That and smiles of kids at play
their faces wipe your cares away)
She laughs
She smiles inside although she weeps
(cos all she wants is bloody sleep!)
Still - they give her so much joy
This snotty girl and cheeky boy
She's fine
Wine you say? of course she will
It helps her sleep, makes her still
Tomorrow that's another day
Try not to wish this life away....
She dreams
That soon they'll stay in bed til noon
Pray that moment comes real soon!
'Cos then she'll sleep, she'll rest, she'll care,
She'll give a damn what clothes she wears
Not yet
This is now and here she lies
Wide awake with open eyes
But no regrets despite the moans
She loves this place, this time, this home
For now she's mum, no time for more
She wears velour.
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| 'Help me' blocks by Imogen Harvey-Lewis |
This is brilliant, I love it.
ReplyDeleteI am also very grateful that my kids have always slept!
Awesome, I miss sleep, tho haven't made it to velour as yet!
ReplyDeleteAmazing and very true
ReplyDeleteHa! The velour number was a gift from big sis when I had a winter baby. To keep me cosy whilst feeding....I don't leave the house in it. But there's still time....... Thanks for comments
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